tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74683350046139570432024-03-06T12:01:38.690-08:00Hanis Amalinahai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.comBlogger79125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-44830657029429147982021-04-26T19:59:00.003-07:002021-04-26T20:01:24.976-07:00setahun kemudian <p>not feeling myself lately<br />tried everything to distract my mind -- decluttering, art therapy, berus toilet, iron baju; semua tak jalan. </p><p>because let's be honest, selagi kita tak acknowledge whats the real problem is, selagi tu tak akan setel.</p><p>selagi tak let it out or write it down selagi tu rasa tu bernanah membengkak, merebak. π’</p><p>celebrated my 27th birthday recently. alhamdulillah for the life, and the family loves Allah has bestowed upon me. π<br />but i've been too hard on myself, when i was young -- 27 seem like a big number, <br />i imagined i have figured out my life together at this age<br />comparing myself with my friends, rasa macam masih banyak yang belum tercapai. </p><p>and i kinda expected birthday wishes from certain people but i guess i wasn't that significant or important enough to be remembered, kan π<br /></p><p>and bila expectations werent met, i set my own self for disappointment. and i blame myself for i might have toxic traits yang buat kawan kawan yang kita sangka ramai dan selamanya, hilang terus tanpa khabar.</p><p>atau mungkin kawan kawan juga sama, too tired dealing with personal probs, too tired to reach out. <br />entahlah. sedih. </p><div>and then came work anniversary. π₯</div><div>so it's been a year i worked as a houseman. and the expectation people have on you as the 4th poster.</div><p>dah 4th poster pun still tak reti? </p><p>mula mula geram sebab we didnt get a proper EOP like other batches. bayangkan PNO then terus start tagging at a new department. and the new department -- bagai langit dengan bumi. </p><p>from department yang <i>'benda boleh relaks buat apa nak kalut'</i> ---> to <i>'stat. stat. stat. kita tak boleh chill kena gelabah patient can deteriorate at any time'</i></p><p>arghh stress nya. </p><p>pujuk hati, i believe this is just a phase, macam previous postings, adjustment disorder -- adaptation process is hard, once dah pandai buat kerja then things will become easier <br /><br />but now it's different. i haven't feel the urge to quit as strong as this time </p><p>susah sangat nak ikhlas. solat hujung waktu, or jamak tu biasa.</p><p>then started overthinking.<br />like is it worth it? i hate how this work has taken its toll on me, how i sacrificed all my teenage life to study, and now i have no work-life balance -- off days are used to recover from the whole week of working. too tired to take care of my own self, apatah lagi to socialize π΅π·</p><p>pastu serabut fikir nak elective posting kat mana after this. <br />not very into adrenaline rush to work at ED / anaesth department.<br />KK? Psy? but then i won't be skilled enough to manage acute cases. </p><p>and then do i have to spend the rest of my life doing this thing? dreaded to go to work every early morning, feeling anxious every time i have to work night shift, working, dealing with difficult people? zzz</p><p>and at the same time my parents were tested with health problems. and I don't even know how to treat my own parents -- I can only tell them to go to the nearest clinic to get a proper check-up <br />-- helpless sangat. sibuk dengan mak ayah orang lain kat hospital, tapi tak tahu nak manage mak ayah sendiri. i feel useless, cried like crazy in the car ππ£</p><p>am i really fit for this job? is this what i really dream of?</p><p>while i am at war with my own head, tiba tiba Allah hadirkan seorang patient;<br />I was taking his blood when he suddenly said;<br /><i>"jadi doktor ni memang tak banyak masa macam orang lain, banyak kena korbankan. tapi iye lah kita tengok orang sakit kan, banyak ganjarannya kat sana nanti inshaAllah"</i><br /><br />at that point of time I felt like Allah is talking to me through him :(<br /><br />and during my drive home, my playlist randomly played this song;</p><span style="font-family: times;"><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444;">Adakah semua ini yang ku inginkan</span></i></div><i><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444;">Ataupun hanya mengejar dunia semata-mata</span></i></div></i></span><p style="text-align: right;"></p><div style="text-align: center;"><i style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: times;">Ku harap ku masih percaya</i></div><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444;"><div style="text-align: center;"><i style="font-family: times;">-Sungai Lui, Aizat Amdan</i></div></span><p></p><p style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: times;"><span style="background-color: white;">this song struck me just at the right moment. <br /></span></span></p><p style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: times;"><span style="background-color: white;">semua ni dunia sahaja, jambatan penghubung dengan tempat tinggal hakiki -- akhirat<br />kita bukannya akan hidup sampai bila bila <br />all these will pass too <br /></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: times;"><br />and sangat rugi je kita berpenat penat kat dunia tu tapi tak ada apa apa pun yang boleh dibawa ke sana<br />sayang je betapa banyak peluang terbazir bila kita sebenarnya boleh niatkan pahala ziarah orang sakit bila tengok patients</span></p><p style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: times;">yang kita stress stress sangat ni sebab kita lupa the big picture,</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: times;"><span style="background-color: white;"><br />kerja ni sebahagian sahaja daripada hidup bukan tujuan utama kita hidup semata mata untuk kerja </span></span></p><p>i might not enjoy this current posting or this current environment but lets just get through this, bayangkan this is just one of the door that we have to lalu to get to where we want to be, shall we?</p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6Hh2PYDB8fKP0-7CSYGS8CU7mmcjCa0OR13Elq-RY_ZAPtWOxskikKWQsd9CffrOmj76XoKTdQzDQ87u3wrBmmsAloCZJZ-P9mCMlpO0NMc4zsAY0grdOkNKpth9wvmQBkZivxqJfF3I/s599/Screen+Shot+2021-04-27+at+10.33.11.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="599" data-original-width="586" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6Hh2PYDB8fKP0-7CSYGS8CU7mmcjCa0OR13Elq-RY_ZAPtWOxskikKWQsd9CffrOmj76XoKTdQzDQ87u3wrBmmsAloCZJZ-P9mCMlpO0NMc4zsAY0grdOkNKpth9wvmQBkZivxqJfF3I/s320/Screen+Shot+2021-04-27+at+10.33.11.png" /></a><br /><br /></div>in the mean time, lets be grateful Allah put you on this journey dan tidak berharap kepada selain Allah. because at the end of the day, Allah never leave you. awak je yang jauhkan diri π<p></p><p>all these while i have survived by staying positive. but lets be real, "<i><span style="font-family: times;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #5f6368;">Staying positive doesn't mean</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #4d5156;"> you have to </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #5f6368;">be</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #4d5156;"> happy all the time. 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<p> dalam tak sedar, tetiba dah entering 8th month of housemanship π</p><p>kalau in previous post i talked about the 'external' struggles, adapting with the new routines and the stressors from outside, this time around I wanna express about my internal struggles pulekk.</p><p>it was not easy to decide on which hospital should I work at as houseman ni, but after long thought and istikharah, my family and i decided that the best would be to go back to our hometown.</p><p>it was my first choice since i want to be away from the hustle and bustle of city life, to be close to my main stress reliever -- pantai π and i guess that would be the best decision for me to achieve my personal goals/ targets.</p><p>tak dinafikan, memang lebih terasa ketenangan nya. udara segar, slower pace of life, tak perlu bayar tol hehe, and rasa selamat. </p><p>buttt, starting a new life in a 'new' place has not been easy. i spent almost all years growing up in Selangor, paling lama pernah stay in Terengganu pun 2 minggu. </p><p>it was tough to cope with all the new jobscopes and to adapt with new environment at the same time </p><p>tried bercakap dengan staff nurses/ patients/ colleagues dalam slang ganu -- tapi bunyi KL, cepat je diorang tangkap "awak orang mana? macam cakap luar" π maybe saya cakap tak cukup qalqalah nya haha. terus rasa tak belonged here sobss.<br /></p><p>then come the hardest part. kawan kawan jauh, (lagi sedih bila rasa macam kita aje yang rindu kawan kawan, kawan kawan ok je tanpa kita ππ’) so i have to make new friends.</p><p>being me, tahu je lah kan, bukan senang nak open up. but alhamdulillah, now i have a few that i can trust on, it takes time je actually hihi π</p><p>tapi nak menghadapi hari hari sunyi tu, Allah sahaja yang tahu. when you want to rant about your bad days tapi rasa macam taknak bebankan orang lain, diorang pun ada masalah sendiri untuk difikirkan.<br />nak cerita kat mak ayah, taknak diorang risau.</p><p>so kita pun pendam aje lah sorang2, on the way balik rumah tu pasang lagu sendu, mengalirlah air mata menangis tersedu sambil drive. sampai rumah, kesat air mata macam tak ada apa berlaku. and try lupa apa yang jadi, biar terkubur macam tu sahaja. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjxV6qzEeyxK7sAAcXhpx8LXUPKpecJbfPsk6tmdnmq4C-OZZcsnoXIZ5eSpwb_R_QKv-uddu__egiY_vRX6YVlGO6pyolfDRnDS9RUrkH5ZsPo26vMIIhB961bkbsDNTnOHuCF_DjSOss/s1242/500033200575_14884047069649583863.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="976" data-original-width="1242" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjxV6qzEeyxK7sAAcXhpx8LXUPKpecJbfPsk6tmdnmq4C-OZZcsnoXIZ5eSpwb_R_QKv-uddu__egiY_vRX6YVlGO6pyolfDRnDS9RUrkH5ZsPo26vMIIhB961bkbsDNTnOHuCF_DjSOss/s320/500033200575_14884047069649583863.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />this. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div>i guess, that's a part of adulting, no? 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so pejam celik pejam celik dah 3 bulan bergelar houseman alhamdulillah. dah lama nak write about the experiencessss, tapi macam biasa lahh - bila ada mood nak menaip tak ada masa, then bila dah ada masa tak ada mood pula nak menulis hehee ππ</div>
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yup the first two weeks of tagging - adapting, dari 6am to 10pm ++ dengan tak ada orientasi nya, postponed because of COVID so kitorang redah aje lahh. banyak independent, kena belajar sendiri then tanya seniors. seniors was so helpful melayan, even benda remeh pun diorang tolong and jawabkan alhamdulillah</div>
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i think most of my earlier struggles were to set the branulas and blood takings. i was clueless, ye lah time medical student dulu kan practice on patung so dah ada needle marks then poke aje di situ π but when it comes to real patients, cucuk dua, tiga kali still tak dapat. pastu kesian kat patients, tak sampai hatiii --- </div>
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i guess so far the most memorable incidents that i have during this first posting were:<br />
1) patient who was admitted because of stroke - she was well that evening, chatty, and laughed with me then suddenly at 8pm during ward round developed seizure - it was my second day of work -- i was asked to request urgent CT brain that night. kena speak to the MO radiology on call -- macam biasa lah, kena marah. katanya kenapa nak expose patient to another radiation, baru je buat CT scan time admission tadi. turns out -- ada haemorrhagic changes, intracranial bleeding.<br />
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2) patient admitted for leptospirosis - ada deranged liver enzymes, clinically jaundice. kena request urgent ultrasound HBS. kena marah lagi dengan MO radiology, but request was granted anyways. turns out --memang ada liver abscess.<br />
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it was so satisfyinggg that eventhough you kena marah macam apa, but finally the patients could be managed with the right treatments π<br />
those were the days when i really enjoyed my job.<br />
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pukul 12am restless, and mengadu sakit perut. given oral analgesic and gastric medications tapi tak resolved. pukul 3am informed MO, so bagi lagi IV medications pula. nampak macam dah okay so i went to take blood cm at other ward. pukul 5am macam tu i came to check on the patient, relative cakap dia dah tidur. then 5.30am nurse cakap patient unresponsive, started CPR immediately. but he didn't make it. muda lagi, dalam 30 tahun lebih. </div>
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that was my first breakdown. menangis macam apa entah dalam kereta on the way balik rumah pagi tu. i kept thinking about what should i have done differently that could have saved the patient. π</div>
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balik rumah nangis lagi, terbayang bayang the cries of the family members.<br />
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-75354561698369746272020-05-28T00:01:00.000-07:002020-06-26T06:14:10.148-07:00life after school :) <div style="text-align: left;">
teruk benar procrastinate nya nak tulis pasal work experiences suddenly it's already 6 months later and now I am already on the third job hehee π <br />
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looking back, it feels like a distant memory-- what used to bother me macam dah tak matter anymore maybe because i grew from those experiences? π but since I already made a note about it, why not document it here for future references kann<br />
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so one month pluss after graduation, I went for the walk-in interview at this private hospital for clinic assistant position and easily accepted. they were short of staffs since they're opening another new hospital and old staffs moved there<br />
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the first three weeks adjusting, I was eager to learn - I applaud myself every day for waking up early -leaving the comfort of my bed to a whole new world full of uncertainties gituh<br />
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I don't really fancy small talks. tapi kita kan orang baru so I tried to fit in - hari hari sembang dengan colleagues, kakak kakak yang dah in other phases of life - so their topics revolve around balik kerja nak ambil anak from rumah pengasuh, pam susu, hari ni nak masak apa etc <span style="text-align: center;">π it's not that bad tho, I learn a few gems from those conversations with them, able to see a part of their daily life- how it looked like to be a working mom </span></div>
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and yes the bawang culture - scaryyyy. I overheard them talking about other people and goshhhhh tiba tiba jadi anxious, risau kalau diorang pun mengata kita behind our backs. </div>
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pastu overthink - between<br />
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then because people knew I am a medical graduate, "Hanis kan Doktor ni, takkan lah tak boleh," etc etc. tiba tiba bahu jadi extra berat, because people keep on putting high expectations on me. so I thought. I got weary and tired of dealing with people everyday. sampai satu tahap, I questioned myself, 'betul ke nak jadi doktor ni? mampu ke nak hadap manusia hari hari?'<br />
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itu baru among colleagues. pasal consultants pulak. unlike the others, I didn't get to assist my own clinic/ doctors. they gave me this task as a 'runner'. so I will jump around clinics, fill the spot whenever their assistants are on emergency leave / half day breaks. from obs&gynae, paeds, dermato, haemato, psych, ENT. to look at the bright side, bagus lah kan dapat macam macam experiences from various specialties. plus I hate the repetitive same routine so ok lah not bad<br />
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(it's also fun to see how people treat me differently before and after they know i was a medical graduate. hmmm manusia ππ double standard yeee)<br />
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but the downside is whenever I was in a new clinic I was clumsy sebab tak biasa with the specialists' styles/ working ethics. then ada lah buat silap, like a lotttt of them.<br />
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sedih lah jugak kena herdik, ada dua tiga kali nangis kat workplace, then nangis lagi dalam kereta on the way balik masa cerita kat kak long lulz<br />
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over time i realized that it's just human things, we are bound to make mistakes -yang penting I owned up my mistakes and do better the next time ye dak.<br />
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then there was this phase when I was putting the blame on myself;<br />
<i>"am I too sensitive?"</i><br />
<i>"is it my marah threshold too low?" -orang tak marah pun I thought orang marah hmm π€</i><br />
<i>"is it me who has emotional reaction to everything people throw at me?"</i><br />
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I became easily intimidated, like I was walking on eggshells π£<br />
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it became harder when I felt like its just me, kawan kawan lain happy je kerja kat situ<br />
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when I was at the verge of giving up, sebab rasa macam mental health tak berapa ok je kalau stay kann, then came an email offering a new job as research assistant, the one I applied wayyyy before that<br />
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rasa macam nampak light at the end of the tunnel haha dramatik ye<br />
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finallyyy i can get out of this mess and the tangled knot inside of my head<br />
but nak berhenti tu banyak benar ye dugaan nya, birokrasi thingzzz hmm π<br />
end up my last salary kena potong sebab katanya tak bagi notice within a month padahal masalah miscommunication je ahh geram pulak bila ingat balik π<br />
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but overall ok lah, I got to taste the harsh reality so I could be more prepared<br />
jadi kebal, toughen up a bit so lepas ni kalau kena marah marah lagi I am immunized already weeee<br />
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then i went for the second job, sempat kerja sebulan je before kena panggil for housemanship<br />
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it was a whole new set of experiences,<br />
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kena bangun awal to take public transports to work, bersesak dalam LRT on the way back home<br />
but overall it was fun,<br />
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shared a bond immediately with my colleagues because we spent most of the times together, and just talk about everythinggg<br />
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banyak belajar tentang diri sendiri throughout these journeys,<br />
communicating with strangers doesn't seem like a difficult task anymore, I can be extroverted when I need to -<br />
and if a job is meant for you, it should be naturally easy to enjoy, it doesn't have to feel forced kan?<br />
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-74974662702023985472019-12-27T02:09:00.000-08:002019-12-27T02:11:44.357-08:00Start of Something New :)<div style="text-align: left;">
so last night i watched 17 Again. there was a part where Maggie was heartbroken, then Mike said something to console her - lebih kurang begini; <i>"<b>When you're young, everything feels like the end of the world. It's not. It's just the beginning."</b></i></div>
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betul la tu kan. remember last post when i said that currently, i am in the midst of adapting, adjusting to the new phase of adulthood, the harsh reality of the world yada yadaa... and i looked like i am koyak all the time kan. now i realized that life after this won't be any easier pun. macam main game kan, after dah passed one level, the next level after tu is supposed to be harder than previous one kan sebab you yourself pun dah advanced to another level gitu. </div>
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so i was relieved by the fact that everything i am going through right now is actually preparing me for something bigger in the future, and hopefully i can go through every phases dengan jaya nya inshaAllah :) tapi tipu lah kalau sentiasa positif all the time kan, walaupun kita dah accept that '<i>the cheese moves'- (there will always be changes and we should be ready to adapt)-</i> bad days are there so that we can appreciate the good days better. lagipun this is dunya --so it's not perfect. :)</div>
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<span style="text-align: center;">i just hope that whenever i face any difficulties in the future, i will remember those times when i didn't give up and survived. when i felt like it is really the end, but it's actually not. :)</span></div>
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applied 25 vacancies at JobStreet, sent 18 emails for research assistant position, went for interviews 3 times but didn't receive callback, and finally offered a job after a smooth & breezy walk-in interview session (but the working experiences ain't a smooth & breezy one π )</div>
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-48679515819601314032019-12-15T05:58:00.000-08:002019-12-15T05:58:20.020-08:00a short story :)people always tell me my voice is so soft they cannot hear me. 'cakap kuat sikit, tak dengar.'<br />
but there is this one person; who could listen even when i am not talking, my unspoken words.<br />
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i was hardly being noticed, people didn't even know they went to the same college as me. i am almost invisible to most of them.<br />
but this one person, make me feel completely seen and understood. i can be myself comfortably. there is nothing i really need to hide.<br />
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that was then. it was good while it lasted.<br />
now? i don't know anymore.<br />
too many what-ifs.<br />
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there is a lot i want to talk about, so much i want to ask.<br />
but i am not sure if i am ready to face it if the answer is not as what i expected.<br />
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constantly torn in between 1) if it's meant to be, it will be, or<br />
2) if you really want something, you have to fight for it<br />
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but i cannot be the only one fighting, kan?<br />
maybe the closure is already there but you are still in denial, hmm ?<br />
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p/s: don't mind me, it is just the time of the month. maybe it is the hormone.<br />
maybe i watch too many dramas. or read too much relationship advice on the internet.<br />
and it's raining. and i am alone, thus these thoughts echoed.<br />
and it's the wedding season - people getting married every weekend. make me wonder if i will ever get to find my own person too-- who i can instantly click with and feel like i have known him my whole life, who make it so easy for me to break down my walls; the one who i can confide to. the one who feels like home. π‘<br />
entahlah π<br />
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<i>Hanya satu keyakinanku, </i><br />
<i>Bintang kan bersinar menerpa hidupku - bahagia kan datanggg. </i>π΅πΆπ§hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-49881539015539092582019-11-14T05:17:00.000-08:002019-11-14T05:28:30.330-08:00back for more :)macam tak percaya it has been almost 2 years since my last post here,<br />
and it will be less than two months to 2020. wow<br />
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for the past 2 years, a lot has happened- i explored new things, got out of my comfort zones, struggled through medical school, graduated! πand started working πΌ.<br />
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hmm banyak nak cerita niii tak tahu nak mula dari manaa π <br />
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recently i stumbled upon a tweet, a quote from John Green- "Writing is a profession for introverts who want to tell you a story but don't wanna make eye contact while telling it."<br />
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which i found it to be true, like i need to let this out of my chest, i want people to know what's actually inside my head but i don't want to tell them directly. hehe βΊοΈ<br />
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if you, my beloved friends, found this post; i want you to read but i don't want to know you have read it. so don't tell me π hahaa complicated kan.<br />
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hmm<br />
i know i am struggling with something now but i believe this shall pass soon. this is just a phase.<br />
maybe i just need more time to adapt to all these changes.<br />
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dulu hidup untuk diri sendiri aje, drive pergi balik kolej, stayback kat mezzanine all day and the only worry is hari ni nak makan kat mana.<br />
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now baru nak rasa the real taste of 'adulting.' baru nak menghadapi the true reality of the harsh world. and living with parents who is growing older, they are a little bit more sensitive now so i kind of feel like there is a lot on my plate.<br />
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hari tu jumpa kawan yang dah lama tak jumpa then when we bid goodbye dia pesan, "<i>dah jangan koyak koyak k</i>," thank you for concerning about me but entah lah. i am not that koyak all the time but it just happens that when i am koyak, i share something on the social media and it's true people tend to judge everything that is going on with your life based on what they see on social media.<br />
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and instagram, make us believe that everyone is having it all, enjoying the best time of their life, travel sana sini, having brunch at all the hipster cafes in town - and it is not healthy bila kita start compare our life with theirs kan. pastu macam kita kena sentiasa happy kat instagram kan. hmm<br />
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that's why i always end up here. i think the best way to heal, to untangle the knot inside my head is to write it down. so i can realize <i>'hek eleh itu je keeee' </i>hehehhh.<br />
i can always come back in the future and look back at all the things that have made me, me.<br />
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hmm ok lah tu dulu for now. baru nak panas enjin hehe lama tak menaip ni ada sikit sikit karat. π<br />
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plis pray for me oki?<br />
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<br />hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-84252999391214311632017-12-31T07:44:00.002-08:002017-12-31T07:44:29.079-08:00Farewell 2017. :)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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February 2017, Penang Hill</div>
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i really love this picture π i can see the sadness in my eyes tapi senyum tu, ikhlas.<br />
dari hati. i was totally happy.<br />
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(rasa macam dengar suara Justin Timberlake in the background)<br />
<i>"you with the sad eyes, don't be discouraged,</i><br />
<i>oh i realised it's hard to take courage</i><br />
<i>in the world full of people</i><br />
<i>you can lose sight of it all</i><br />
<i>the darkness inside you can make you feel so small"</i><br />
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klik -<a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=la0-5QFLr14&list=LLpqRyI7iWIsZIydV6EAZDSg&index=22" target="_blank">True Colors</a><br />
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it was the most difficult time of my life (so far) - the period when i thought i hit the rock bottom.<br />
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my family came to the rescue;<br />
it was a public holiday, all of my housemates went back home and i was left alone.<br />
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my family, they were supposed to go back to Terengganu but they made a U- turn, then took a different route to Penang; just because of me.<br />
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<i>"how can we not talk about family when family's all that we got?"</i><br />
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i know it was so tiring for them to drive the long journey.<br />
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they make me realised how big the love they have for me;<br />
how they went through those distance - just to make me feel better.<br />
and it makes me ponder:<br />
am i willing to do the same for them?<br />
is my love big enough to make such sacrifice too?<br />
can i be selfless in loving them?<br />
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i feel the urge to write this, sebab baru tengok Bisik Pada Langit tadi.<br />
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<i>"Tidak ada ayah yang sanggup melihat puterinya terluka,"</i><br />
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i can see myself in Hajar and banyak dialog yang Ayah Hajar ungkapkan, pernah Mak dan Ayah cakap jugak;<br />
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and i can imagine Mak bila tengok macam mana susahnya Ayah Hajar nak lepaskan Hajar belajar kat luar negara; and macam mana perasaan Mak Ayah bila kita jauh dari diorang.<br />
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<i>"jaga lembu sekandang lagi mudah dari jaga anak perempuan seorang"</i><br />
<i>"korang tak ada anak lagi, korang ada anak karang korang tahu la macam mana rasanya"</i><br />
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my heart broke into pieces bila Hajar nazak, and the only thing she asked for is Ayah.<br />
and i cried a bucket once her Ayah bisik kalimah syahadah through phone π’π<br />
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<i>"mak ayah yang kehilangan anak lagi perit daripada anak yang kehilangan mak ayah"</i><br />
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no love is even comparable to their love.<br />
no love can challenge the love our parents have for us.<br />
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i don't think i can go through all the challenges this year, without their support and understanding.<br />
i don't even think i can pass the exams without their prayers.<br />
Alhamdulillah atas nikmat kurniaanMu ya Allah, for having the best parents i could ever ask for.<br />
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semoga 2018 dan tahun tahun mendatang sampai akhir hayat, i can be a better daughter for them, a better sister, and be better in everything i do.<br />
no turning back.<br />
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i know the upcoming years won't be any easier, but i pray for the strength to face it all- with Your redha and rahmah.<br />
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Strength, to be fearless, and not see everything as something to stop me.<br />
Strength, to be strong enough, to rise above any situation, and not let it overcome me. <br />
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Goodbye 2017.<br />
Through the ups and downs,<br />
Through the self discoveries that I've found, you've taught me a lot.<br />
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<br />hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-52272987043000040622017-12-30T21:25:00.000-08:002017-12-30T21:25:24.248-08:00Car Rides. :) Saidina Umar Al Khatab once said, kita takkan betul betul kenal seseorang tu unless kita travel dengan dia.<br />
honestly i didn't have that much travel experiences this year, selain dengan family.<br />
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but, i got a lot of chances to tumpang kereta orang, carpool - sebab for the first half of the year, penakut nak drive heheee tambah tambah lagi kat penang (which is well known for the bad habits of the drivers) ππ thank you guys yang pernah tumpangkan, i owe you a lottt.<br />
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many people don't realise this, but i am quite observant la hehe<br />
being an INFJ - the judging trait tu kadang kadang susah nak control<br />
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senyap senyap, i (observe + analyse) how they react/response bila jalan jammed, bila tiba tiba ada annoying drivers masuk lane tak bagi signal, etc.<br />
it's interesting and quite a fun experience la actually to see that kat dunia ni memang ada macam macam jenis manusia, macam macam jenis ragam.<br />
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so when it's time for me to drive my own car, i was reluctant to let people tumpang (at first) because i don't want to be seen through, like what i did to others haha.<br />
buat kat orang boleh, orang buat kat dia tak boleh. π<br />
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it takes a lot of courage actually for me to let people in, rasa vulnerable sangat to let other person see me in my truest state, to let people know my music preferences.<br />
so you guys yang pernah naik sekali are actually special, not many are given that privilege gituh. π<br />
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i really love car rides.<br />
and to be honest, i love the conversations we have when we're on the road.<br />
it is personal, and i don't think we are gonna have that kind of talk outside of the car.<br />
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<br />hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-41390208727685458992017-12-12T09:16:00.000-08:002017-12-12T09:16:54.897-08:00#Cadangan K-Drama: Age of Youth :)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">this drama is quite under rated, tak ramai yang tahu and the actors and actresses pun tak ramai yang kenal. i couldn't remember how i happened to watch the first season last year, then bila dapat tahu yang they were releasing the second season this year, i was excited to see how the writers develop the characters.</span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: inherit;">1) Jin Myung, or Yoon sunbae </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Yoon sunbae ni ahli rumah yang paling senior, paling tua compared to yang lain. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">dalam season 1, banyak cerita tentang struggle Yoon sunbae.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">dia banyak part time jobs, and graduate lambat daripada orang lain yang sebaya dengan dia sebab financial problem. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and for season 2, dia dah ada kerja tetap and dia acts as a wise big sister la yang jadi tempat housemates yang lain refer for their life issues. </span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: inherit;">2) Eun Jae</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">personally i can see a little bit of myself in Eun Jae. hehe</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Eun Jae ni macam innocent, naive, timid, lurus. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">dia tak berani nak suarakan walaupun</span> orang sekeliling ambil kesempatan, or take advantage of kebaikan dia<span style="font-family: inherit;">. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but for season 2, her story is about how Eun Jae break up dengan her boyfriend, become obsessed to get him back and how she finally get over her first love, her first heart break. hehs</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">the last episode, finally dah move on dah π at least you learn something about life, kan?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>3) Jo Eun</b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">this is a new character for season 2. ahli baru of the shared house. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Jo Eun ni boyish sikit, and dia ada a very girlish clingy best friend so orang selalu salah anggap yang diorang lesbian. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">aren't we all, Ye Eun? ππ </span></div>
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the main story in season 2 berkait rapat dengan past history Ji Won. </div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">anddd,, the most iconic couple in K-drama history goes to: Ji Won - Sung Min ππ</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">it is not cliche at all, i like how they portray the </span>reality of<span style="font-family: inherit;"> life, and how the viewers rasa connected macam </span>seolah olah<span style="font-family: inherit;"> kita pun </span>tinggal<span style="font-family: inherit;"> </span>serumah<span style="font-family: inherit;"> dengan </span>diorang. <span style="font-family: inherit;"> </span><br />
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<br />hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-60362024494340045452017-09-16T19:10:00.001-07:002017-09-30T01:26:38.245-07:00What I learn in that period of time: A Reminder :) <div style="text-align: center;">
<b>these are the things that i wrote down in my phone on the bad days, when it was too much to bear ;)</b></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"><b>sangka baik dengan Allah please?</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"><b>Allah doesn't give up on you, so why should you? </b></span><br />
<b><span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;">sangka baik dengan Allah. He only wants the best for you. </span><span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"> </span></b><br />
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"><b>kita dah minta sungguh2 kat Allah kan? </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"><b>sangka baik dengan Allah, He will give you, He will suffice you</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"><b>sangka baik dengan Allah, doa ibu bapa tak ada hijab</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"><b>sangka baik dengan Allah, He won't put me in this situation unless He knows i can bear it</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"><b>this whole situation will teach you something, a lot of things indeed</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;"><b>kena sabar sikit, and have faith in Him.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>hanis, dah cukup lah kan ambik rehat satu hari ni.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>take a break, but don't quit</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>you're a fighter, you're a survivor</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>jangan rasa nak give up even though its hard</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>IT IS supposed to be hard</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>tapi jangan focus on the bad thing</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>focus on loadsss of the good things instead</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>banyak dah Allah mudahkan ni</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>petang tak ada lecture/tutorial dah</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>tak ada long case, actually it is easier dah pun </b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>memang rasa penat tapi sekejap je.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>lagi 2 minggu setengah you'll be done</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>sabar sikit je lagi</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>if you believe you can,</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: inherit;"><b>you're halfway there</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e69138;"><b>if you can pass through this challenge, you can pass through anything else in the world insyaAllah</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">stop regretting about the past. y</span>ou don't live there anymore.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: inherit;"><b>benda dah berlalu tak boleh nak putar balik masa</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: inherit;"><b>just give your best now.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">stop overthinking about the result. d</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">o not worry about the future. </span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b>who promise you tomorrow? </b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: inherit;"><b>take it easy. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">just live in the moment, do the best you can today- in case kalau </span>mati<span style="font-family: inherit;"> kejap lagi, mampu tak amal ni dibawa masuk syurga?</span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: inherit;"><b>focus your energy on things that matter and let go of things you can't control. </b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: inherit;"><b>at least kite ada Allah kan, itu yang differ kita from those who don't have Allah.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: inherit;"><b>cukup lah sehari ni rehat.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: inherit;"><b>gather, muster up your courage again. tomorrow is a new day. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: inherit;"><b>fight for Allah, Dia menjadikan mati dan hidup untuk menguji siapa yang lebih baik amalnya</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: inherit;"><b>Ya Allah moga manisnya iman ini kekal Ya Allah</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: inherit;"><b>jadikanlah aku benci untuk kembali kepada kesesatan sebagaimana aku benci untuk dicampakkan ke dalam api neraka.</b></span><br />
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<b><span style="color: #45818e;">i am strong because of You.</span></b><br />
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<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: inherit;"><b>Allah akan beri jalan keluar dari arah yang tak disangka sangka.</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b><u>π¬ random thoughts π¬</u></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>Bila rasa sempit tak cukup masa nak baca Quran, time tu lah kena gandakan lagi bacaan Quran. Masa akan terasa lapang selapang lapangnya. Hati pun. Lapang.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">Take some time off the social media. </span>You'll be a lot happier.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>You'll feel a lot better after you cry it out. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>If you can't, write it down. Jangan bottle up. Nanti makan diri. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>Best things to do to take your mind off things: Long night drive tanpa arah tujuan. Or take a walk. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>Or cook. Or iron baju. It works, trust me. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>Plus, plan in advance and iron </b></span><span style="color: #a64d79;"><b>baju for the whole week terus --> it helps a lot. kurangkan masa termenung depan almari setiap pagi sebab susah buat decision nak pakai baju mana. </b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>Great things never came from comfort zones. Don't let anything stop you. Kalau nak pegi library tapi tak ada transport: seek alternatives. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>Jangan banyak alasan.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79;"><b>It's okay to ask for help. Jangan rasa diri tu burden untuk org lain.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>This test is for you to learn to multitask, nanti dah jadi a mom and a doctor at the same time lagiiii la berganda ganda penatnya. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>You can push yourself to the limit. You just don't know yet about it. </b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>That you're capable of doing anything that you put your mind to. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>There's a hero inside you that you'll discover. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>When you don't understand something, seek reference / tanya orang / do additional reading cepat2. Jangan tangguh. Jangan sampai bertimbun. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span>
<span style="color: #a64d79;"><b>Those<span style="font-family: inherit;"> people in your life is meant to teach you something. </span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: inherit;"><b>Forgive them as how you want Allah to forgive you. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #a64d79;"><b>Forget<span style="font-family: inherit;"> the mistake, but never the lesson. </span></b></span><br />
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<b><u>and this was written just after the hardest paper, that i felt i did real bad.</u></b></div>
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<span style="font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-position: normal; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>Allah akan uji kita dengan apa yang kita takut sebab Allah nak kita kuatkan pergantungan dan harapan pada Dia.</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>As much as orang lain fikir it's not logical, I want to believe it that way. </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span></div>
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<b><span style="color: #3d85c6;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Allah mampu untuk tukarkan jawapan yang Hanis tulis macam Allah tukarkan tongkat Nabi Musa jadi ular. It's possible for Allah. Nothing is impossible for Him. Kun Fayakun. All I have to do is just believe. T</span>hereβll be miracle when you believe.</span></b></div>
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<b><span style="color: #3d85c6;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Allah jugak akan lembutkan hati pemeriksa dan bagi dia k</span>asi<span style="font-family: inherit;"> markah banyak banyak kat Hanis sampai Hanis pass semua paper. Hanis tak boleh putus harap. I've done what I could tadi, sekarang it's in Allah's hand. Leave it there, it's in better care now. </span></span></b></div>
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<b><span style="color: #3d85c6;"><br /></span></b></div>
<div style="font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-position: normal; line-height: 16px;">
<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>Wa qola robbukumud 'uni astajib lakum.</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>maybe sebelum ni Hanis tak betul betul yakin Allah akan tolong. </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>tapi kali ni Hanis yakin Ya Allah, sebulatnya. </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>Hanis akan pass bukan sebab usaha Hanis. </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>tapi sebab Allah tolong. dan Allah akan tolong. </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b><br /></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>walaupun Hanis banyak dosa, tapi Allah tolong Hanis bukan sebab Hanis, </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: inherit;"><b>tapi sebab Dia, sebab Dia mampu. </b></span></div>
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<b>to end this post, </b></div>
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<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b>i really hope that this post can serve as a reminder for me,</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b> dan mohon dijauhkan daripada sifat manusia yang Allah dah terangkan dalam Al-Quran; </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b>T_T</b></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: inherit;">and even after result kelu</span>ar<span style="font-family: inherit;"> hari tu, rasa macam hilang arah kejap. </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>bila kita dah achieve the short term goal tu, my mind wanders: what's next? </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Perhaps I am missing a few meaningful goals, not because I don't have the motivation. </b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Gotta find the burning desire again and start working towards the ultimate dream! <span style="color: #674ea7;">πͺπͺ</span></b></span></div>
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-76652655338044062802017-09-15T17:01:00.003-07:002017-09-15T17:01:58.204-07:00First half of 2017: A Look Back :)Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.<br />
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hmm where do i start?<br />
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so yup, the results are out.<br />
Alhamdulillah tsumma Alhamdulillah. T_T<br />
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bila results keluar semalam (24/8/2017), macam tak percaya pun ada.<br />
sampai hari ni i recheck it again and again, betul ke pass semua ni? T_T<br />
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so here i am, sitting in this small room in PMC library that witnessed it all, reminiscing all the moments that we had before the exams, remembering all the mixed feelings - and i want to put it down here. so one day i can always look at it back- a big part of my life events that are shaping me for who i am today.<br />
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2017.<br />
i started the year with a heavy heart, menghabiskan hari hari terakhir di Dublin with lots of unfulfilled bucket lists hahaaa. being human - i wished i had more time tapi tak apa lah, i promised myself i'll come back to this (once) foreign land, (but not anymore) gituh. π<br />
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by the way, it was the second week of my new 'life' in Penang. i was still adjusting to the new system here when i got to know that i failed all the subjects that i sat for my last semester in Dublin.<br />
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mula mula rasa macam boleh terima, pujuk diri sendiri kata it will be alright, there's still lots of time to study before the supplemental exam in early august.<br />
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tapi as time goes by, i felt overwhelmed by the fact - i failed.<br />
satu demi satu negative thoughts datang menghantui.<br />
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rasa hilang self confident, rasa diri tak pandai - kenapa orang lain boleh pass tapi aku tak? π<br />
tiba tiba MARA pulak cakap kalau ada yang kena repeat year lepas ni diorang takkan tanggung dah, etc etc. mana nak cekau duit nak sambung studyyy T_T<br />
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susah sangat nak manage perasaan masa tu π <br />
rindu dekat Dublin, but at the same time tak nak balik Dublin. yet.<br />
ada suara suara yang bisik kata tak payah study so that boleh experience Dublin lagi. LOL sangat.<br />
but, to restart this year all over again will be very tiring kan. nak kena bid goodbye lagi sekali, kena experience the 'reverse culture shock' again, yada yada.<br />
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lepas tu ada pulak perasaan yang sebanyak mana pun kita study, RCSI as a profit based university boleh je nak fail kan kita sebab dia nak income from international students.<br />
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pendek kata memang banyak la worries about the future. risau pasal uncertainties.<br />
pastu termenung, overthinking.<br />
bila dah penat fikir, badan pun penat. tak ada tenaga nak study.<br />
semangat pun hilang dibawa angin lalu.<br />
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nasib baik the first semester in PMC tak ada barring exam. maksudnya semua markah dalam Residency 1 tu adalah carry marks untuk final year. no matter how badly you did in the semester, still boleh advance to 4th med. jadi, supplemental exam ni adalah penentu sama ada boleh naik tahun atau tak.<br />
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pejam celik pejam celik dah masuk bulan Jun. dah habis Residency 1, bulan puasa.<br />
yang tadi lepas result keluar tu rasa macam ada 6 bulan untuk study for supplemental exam, tiba tiba tinggal tak sampai 2 bulan.<br />
sepanjang 6 bulan yang dah berlalu tu, hanya beberapa hari je diperuntukkan untuk study.<br />
hari hari lain - sama ada buat assignment for the current rotation, ataupun escapism.<br />
tak nak hadapi lagi the fact kena reseat all 4 subjects (3 papers each) again.<br />
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kalau tadi worry about the future, masa ni regret about the past pulak.<br />
menyesali masa masa berharga yang terbiar berlalu macam tu je.<br />
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and the cycle repeats again. termenung --> overthinking --> penat fikir --> badan penat<br />
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till one day, I am reminded again about this talk by NAK. thanks abel :)<br />
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<b><span style="color: #6aa84f;">'I have to put in my effort, and Allah will make the task easy.'</span></b></div>
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it's amazing how this piece help me to see things from the right perspective.<br />
pokok pangkalnya, kena sangka baik dengan Allah.<br />
dan magiknya Ramadan ni, finally i can feel at ease again.<br />
lagipun dah tak banyak masa, i have to work harder.<br />
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tarikh supplemental exams ni pulak, i was in the new rotation, Ophthal and ENT.<br />
seksanya nak study for reseat and dalam masa yang sama nak study pasal new things dalam current rotation. peritnya kena tinggal teaching sebab nak focus for the papers.<br />
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and i don't want to forget, susahnya nak complete kan ophthalmoscope assessment masa tu.<br />
3 hari cari patient- berkejar ke ophthal clinic after ENT teaching, diherdik dengan Dr S, tapi at the end Allah mudahkan je sebenarnya.<br />
we just need to reach out, ask for His help.<br />
memang kena nangis nangis dulu baru terasa manisnya. :')<br />
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kalau before this rasa rendah diri kan sebab tak score in exam, tak dapat honours, ataupun sebab dekat exam transcript nanti akan tertulis 'fail' and 'pass in second sitting'; <br />
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tapi sekarang i am really grateful to have to go through this all, sebab bila fikir balik, i have that extra something that the others don't; the ability to work under pressure.<br />
and because of this test, I am able to learn and reflect a lot of things in life.<br />
(i'll share about it in the next post)<br />
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Kalau dari sudut pandang mata kasar manusia mesti kita akan rasa pain is a bad thing.<br />
Tapi sebenarnya, penyakit yang datang dengan rasa sakit ni lebih baik, compared to kanser yang membunuh secara senyap contohnya, tak rasa sakit apa apa rupanya dah stage bahaya. </div>
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Sama jugak macam hidup kita sehari hari.<br />
Teringat Kak Afikah cakap hari tu, kalau dari pandangan manusia mungkin our situations make us feel at the lowest dah, tapi siapa tahu, sebenarnya it's the best di sisi Allah. </div>
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Bila ada dugaan, maknanya Allah put us in the position untuk selalu meminta dan berharap, hanya pada Dia.<br />
Dan segala yang impossible dan tak logik pada pandangan manusia tu, hakikatnya tiada yang mustahil bagi Allah.<br />
Api panas tak membakar Nabi Ibrahim, Nabi Zakaria yang tua + isterinya mandul tetap dikurniakan anak, laut terbelah untuk Nabi Musa, dan macam macam lagi kisah yang Allah dah cerita dalam AlQuran. <span class="_5mfr _47e3" style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 0; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle;"><span class="_7oe" style="display: inline-block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 0px; width: 0px;">πΌ</span></span></div>
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Hadith Qudsi: "If you never felt pain or experienced problems, how would you know I'm the Healer? If you never made a mistake how would you know I'm the Forgiver? If you were never hurt, how would you know I'm the Comforter? If your life was perfect, then why would you need Me?"</div>
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the feeling of just want to let something of my chest gitu. </div>
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i used to be a sensitive person, like reaaalllyyy sensitive. </div>
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it is not healthy. at all. π’<br />
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tahu tak the famous story, about how carrot, egg, or coffee change after they were put in hot water?<br />
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i could feel that i was becoming the egg, keras.<br />
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and i hate it.<br />
hati meronta ronta, i miss the old me.<br />
yang optimist about life, yang sentiasa usaha cari hikmah, messages from the Higher Power and reasons behind everything that happens.<br />
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and it upset me more when i felt that i didn't know how to bring myself back.<br />
the main reason? FUTUR. lemah iman.<br />
bila jauh dari Allah, macam mana nak kuat hadapi hidup? π’<br />
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jadi sebenarnya, bukan semua perkara kita boleh selesaikan dengan brush it off.<br />
the only solution is to acknowledge the real problem.<br />
to face it.<br />
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then work your way to solve it, and move on forward.<br />
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iye, medical profession ni memang kena kuat tahan emosi.<br />
tapi tak bermakna kita kena jadi tunggul tak berperasaan.<br />
nanti macam mana kita nak salurkan empathy kat patients kan?<br />
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ok lah, tu je dulu.<br />
mohon doakan saya.<br />
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-24947458168180075532017-05-05T22:16:00.000-07:002017-07-03T06:37:33.340-07:00Don't you give up :)so i already finished 2 rotations Alhamdulillah - Family Medicine and Medicine.<br />
and next week will be my 3rd week in Surgery.<br />
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desas desus selama ni yang cakap surgery is the toughest - is true.<br />
yesterday was my turn to present the case.<br />
i knew i am not well prepared, and yes, i did it badly.<br />
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sampai hari ni terngiang-ngiang what the surgeon said.<br />
"crap"<br />
"you are not processing"<br />
"you cannot say you're not sure"<br />
"again, this is a suicidal attempt"<br />
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i didn't know what to feel.<br />
rasa bodoh, incompetent, malu depan groupmates semua ada.<br />
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i tell myself that this is normal, it's a learning process.<br />
jangan lembik sangat, even MO pun still kena marah.<br />
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what's more important here is how i rise back after this,<br />
how i must read more than i should,<br />
how i need to work harder than before.<br />
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one day i'll look back at this period and laugh at myself, kenapa la nak kena upset over trivial things.<br />
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and bila stay kat library, tiba tiba terlintas -kan best kerja as librarian je; duduk dalam aircond, banyak masa lapang boleh baca macam macam buku, tak payah menghadap ramai manusia. haha<br />
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but then again, why i chose this path at the first place?<br />
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Don't you give up *biceps*<br />
Lap air mata tu and move on!<br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><i><b><span style="background-color: white;">"You are going to feel like quitting. You are going to struggle. You'll have days where you'll wonder, "what's it all for?" You'll have days when people attempt </span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">to break you down, or challenge your intelligence, skills and the right to be where you are. You'll have moments when you question your own abilities, and perhaps your sanity; BUT you will rise! You'll rise because your strength as a medic is not determined by one grade, one shift, one job - it's an ongoing journey of honour, learning, humility and a chance to make even the smallest difference in the life of your patients."</span></b></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">why don't you write about how Dr Ang praised you, how Dr Goh boosted your spirits up, how Prof Richard inspired you? </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">btw i believe not all surgeons are grumpy haha.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">i want to remember the humble Mr Imran, and Mr Sou that always stare straight into my eyes and give me this 'look' - 'you're going to be a great doctor.' :')</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">after all, setiap manusia yang kita jumpa hari hari kat hospital tu adalah tarbiyah kiriman Allah. </span><br />
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Monday, 27th February.<br />
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I decided to stay at one of the screening counters with a nurse.<br />
My job was easy. I just need to ask the patients to stand on the weighing scales, measure their waist circumference, take their blood pressure readings and blood glucose levels, then jot it down. <span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;"><br />It was quite a busy morning as Monday is the appointment day for routine check ups/ follow ups.</span></div>
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Suddenly one mak cik whom I attended previously came to me and gave this. She went to the cafe to have her breakfast while waiting for her blood tests results, and bought the kuih for me and for the nurse as well.<br />
"Ambiklah, acik sedekah." </div>
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And the nurse said, "Wahhh dah lama dah saya tak dapat hadiah dari patient ni, bertuah awak ni, sebab awak ada hari ni saya pun dapat jugak." </div>
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Thank you mak cik, for making me realize that every little thing actually matters. I didn't know which part of my deeds might have touched her. Some might think 'ala kuih bahulu je pun', but this little gift actually means a lot, and made me smile for the rest of that day. </div>
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-14125307877345356222017-03-05T06:23:00.000-08:002017-03-05T06:23:11.925-08:00Begin Again. :)it has been two months since i'm back for good, and a month since i started my journey in clinical years. i would say the first two weeks in Penang were the hardest, everything felt completely new.<br />
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and the counsellor explained it very well, in this simple phrase: 'reverse culture shock.'<br />
indeed it was true.<br />
it was weird, now we're back in our home country but we thought that we were not belong here. the attachment towards Dublin was still there.<br />
and i am glad that it was normal, that I was not the only one experiencing it.<br />
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i always thought that i take a longer time than others to adapt to new surroundings. while i might think that it is okay to go at my own pace, but the time i have is limited. i don't have all the time i needed. and i will be left far behind if i didn't catch up.<br />
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being in this clinical setting, it is quite an eye opening to meet different kinds of people every day.<br />
macam macam kelompok manusia.<br />
daripada patients yang macam macam ragam, ada yang respect kita habisan bila nampak kita pakai white coat, tak kurang jugak yang pandang serong kat kita, sebab kita ni kononnya doktor pelatih yang tak competent.<br />
sampailah doctors and professors yang motivating, inspiring and constantly reminding us why we're here to be a good physician, tak kurang jugak para MO yang menunjukkan tanda tanda burnout dan suruh kita quit dan cakap this is not worth it. hahaaaa<br />
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clinical years also taught me that i have to stay out of my comfort zones, and to change is vital.<br />
macam mana nak approach patients nak tanya history walaupun kita ni memang jenis pendiam yang takkan initiate conversations dengan strangers.<br />
macam mana nak stay professional kerja dengan male colleagues walaupun awkward dan tak biasa.<br />
macam mana nak tahan je muka tak malu bila buat silap, salah procedures contohnya. <br />
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ni baru rotation Family Medicine, baru attach kat KK and GP, belum lagi masuk ward Medicine and Surgery.<br />
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i have to say that me being a deep thinker, meeting these range of different people make me reflect on various things in life. and i don't want to forget those feelings i feel and the lessons i learnt.<br />
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either the experiences are good ones, or bad.<br />
i have to put these somewhere so i could look at it back when i need it.<br />
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thus i have decided to start writing again.<br />
i don't want to live inside my head anymore.<br />
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i need to remember, i write solely to express not to impress.<br />
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i stopped once, because i feel vulnerable when i speak what's inside my mind, rasa macam people can see through me and i didn't like it.<br />
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but someone told me that a portion of the heavy weights will be lifted if i share it.<br />
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writing is therapeutics, indeed. it actually works for me.<br />
to many more posts hopefully, insyaAllah!<br />
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<br />hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-71702026150066943512016-12-15T03:57:00.000-08:002016-12-15T03:57:27.979-08:00Last day of IC2 exam. :)#np The Scientist, Coldplay<br />
<i>'Tell me your secrets</i><br />
<i>And ask me your questions</i><br />
<i>Oh let's go back to the start'</i><br />
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awal bulan 9 hari tu kemain tak sabar nak balik Malaysia, kononnya cuti summer sekejap sangat.<br />
and suddenly it's already December.<br />
ticket balik pun dah dapat.<br />
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but now I don't think I'm ready to leave. :'(<br />
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tak sangka dah nak habis dah pun 2.5 tahun kat negara orang.<br />
macam mimpi.<br />
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'<i>Nobody said it was easy</i><br />
<i>No one ever said it would be so hard,</i><br />
<i>I'm going back to the start'</i><br />
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lagu pun dah habis.<br />
I have so much to tell,<br />
but I don't know how to pen down what i'm feeling right now.<br />
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-82841218042737770732016-06-22T21:52:00.001-07:002016-06-22T21:59:57.988-07:00The Girl Who Feels Everything. :)<div class="adjust_blocks_for_ads" data-valid-location="true" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; width: auto;">
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">to finally be able to find a piece that clearly express something I couldn't put into words... is just AMAZING. :)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="line-height: 1.1; text-align: center;"><u>Underneath It All, Iβm The Kind Of Girl Who Feels Everything</u></span><span style="font-weight: 400; line-height: 1.1; text-align: center;"> by </span><span style="font-weight: normal;"><i>Mai Arcano</i></span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">"If you want to know the truth, Iβd tell you I was the sweetest girlβ¦</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I was the girl who tried to be nice even if she knew that she could not please everyone. I was the girl who used to invite as much people into her lifeβ wanting to build relationships and hoping to make them last. I was the girl who would not let a day pass by without talking to the people she cared about just to see how their day turned up. I was the girl who wrote of mushy literary pieces.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I was the girl who, behind all the βI-miss-yousβ, gave all the effort to make every meet-up possible. I was the girl who tried to stick everyone together like a glue. I was the girl who would make sure you felt the best during the important days of your life.<b> I was the girl who would talk to people about how she actually felt. I was the girl who was so naive.</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>But I grew up and I grew wearyβ¦</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>I became the girl who had her own world and learned to be at ease with that. I became the girl who pushed people away and was content with those who manage to stay. I became the girl who seldom initiated conversations. I became the girl who wrote about reality.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>I became the girl who would rather get all the space that she needs and in return, give you yours. I became the girl who understood that she cannot fix everyone nor everything. I became the girl who quietly listens during the worst days. I became the girl who stayed silent and kept her feelings to herself.</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I do. I care a lot actually.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I care about not having my heart broken. I care about saving my energy. I care about sparing all of me. I care about putting myself first because I know that I cannot truly give something that I do not have. I care about not being drained and empty to the point that I can no longer have anything to offerβ especially to the people who matter.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I could be wrong.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I could be selfish.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I could have changed to someone who is far from what others would believe to be the better person who I used to be.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And this is why Iβm not everyoneβs favorite kind of girl. This is why Iβm not the kind of girl whom you would easily miss. This is why Iβm not the kind of girl whom you would bother to ask if sheβs genuinely okay. This is why Iβm not the kind of girl whom you would help even if she was clearly in need. This is why Iβm not the kind of girl whom you would want to save from herself.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But I hope you know that underneath all of this, I am the kind of girl who feels everything."</span><br />
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-31895653248217841752016-05-19T00:00:00.001-07:002016-05-19T00:00:43.575-07:00Hafalan Solat Delisa - Tere Liye :)<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 150%; text-align: center;">
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i read this book last year, and it taught me a lot.</div>
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melalui seorang kanak kanak, kita dapat refleks kembali kualiti solat kita. </div>
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dan bagaimana kuatnya Delisa menghadapi ujian pasca gelombang tsunami yang meragut nyawa ibu dan kakak kakaknya. </div>
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i love to list down my favourite quotes from the books i read.</div>
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so here you go :)</div>
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<b><u><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Calibri;">Hafalan Solat Delisa</span></u></b></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">1.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Ah, beginilah tipikal pencemburu. Merasa
permasalahannya sudah disampaikan kepada orang lain dengan merajuk walau tak
jelas maksudnya.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">2.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Marah dan menangis itu satu jenis.
Kalian akan menangis jika amat marah. Menangis itu juga satu jenis dengan
senang. Kalian akan menangis jika amat gembira. dan tentu sahaja menangis itu
benar-benar satu jenis dengan sedih. Kalian akan menangis kalau sedih.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">3.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">βEh, kerana orang yang khusyuk
fikirannya selalu focus. Fikirannya satu! Misalnya Delisa sedang asyik main
bola di pantai. Fikirannya cuma satukan, mahu menendang bola saja. Walau kaki
terseliuh sakit, Delisa tetap main. Walau hujan turun, Delisa juga tetap main.
Malah kalau dipanggil umi sekali pun, Delisa juga tak mahu berhenti, kan?β β
Ustaz Rahman</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">4.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Mereka berpelukan erat. Berlima. Anak
anak gadis yang solehah, dengan umi pemberi teladan. Bertangisan bahagia.
Delisa dirangkul kakak-kakaknya menangis tersedu sedan. Pagi itu, Sabtu 25
Disember 2004. Sehari sebelum ombak tsunami menghancurkan pesisir Lhok Nga.
Sebelum alam kejam sekali meragut semua kebahagiaan Delisa.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">5.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Pagi itu sebilah cahaya memancar dari
rumah sederhana itu, menghunjam terus ke langit. Cahaya kemilau menakjubkan.
Cahaya yang menggetarkan Arasy Allah. Membuat penduduk langit ramai bertanya.
Siapa?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">6.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Seratus tiga puluh kilometer dari Lhok
Nga. Ketika Delisa usai bertakbiratulihram, ketika ucapan itu hilang dari mulut
Delisa. Ketika itu di tengah lautan luas yang beriak tenang. Persis di sana.
Lantai laut retak seketika. Dasar bumi retak seketika. Merekah panjang ratusan
kilometer.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">7.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Menggentarkan melihatnya. Bumi
menggeliat. Tarian kematian itu mencuat. Mengirimkan petanda kelam menakutkan.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">8.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Ya Allah, runtuh itu seketika
menggoncang bumi. Tanah bergetar dahsyat, menjalar merambat menggentarkan
seluruh dunia dalam lingkungan radius ribuan kilometer. Bumi bak digoyang
tangan raksasa. Dan Ya Allah, air laut seketika bagai mendidih. Tersedut ke
dalam rekahan tanah maha luas itu. Tarian kematian semakin mengerikan. Aroma
tragedi besar menggantung di langit langit samudera. Ratusan ribu penduduk
Acheh dan sekitarnya tidak tahu. Berjuta penduduk dunia belum tahu. Tapi seribu
malaikat bertasbih di atas langit Lhok Nga. Siap sedia untuk menjemput.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">9.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Tepat Delisa mengatakan takbir sebelum
sujud itu, <u>tepat sebelum kepalanya menghentam tembok itu, ribuan cahaya melesat
daripada Arasy Allah. Tembok itu berguguran sebelum sempat sedikit pun
menyentuh kepala mungil Delisa yang berbungkus tudung biru.</u></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">10.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Kamu harus menyelesaikan hafalan itu,
sayang. Kamu harus menyelesaikannya! Cikgu Nur berbisik sendu. Menatap sejuta
makna. Matanya meredup. Tenaganya sudah habis. Cikgu Nur bersiap dijemput
syahid. Akhir yang indah baginya!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">11.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Tubuh lemah Delisa terus terseret jauh
oleh gelombang Tsunami. Terikat di atas papan. Bersama ribuan orang lainnya.
Hari itu pagi Ahad, 26 Disember 2004. <u>Penduduk dunia mencatatnya. Hari itu pagi
Ahad, 26 Disember 2004. Penduduk langit mencatatnya. Mencatat manusia-manusia
terbaik.</u></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">12.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;"> Ah, selalu begitu. Kejadian yang tak
terhindar, selalu mendidik manusia manusia terbaik-Mu dengan cepat. <u>Kejadian itu
selalu sementara. Pemahaman atas kejadian itulah yang abadi.</u></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">13.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Orang dewasa itu rumit, ya? Sering
berfikiran yang aneh aneh. Memandang matahari tenggelam yang indah ini sahaja,
abi menghela nafas panjang.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">14.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Dan daripada sebahagian hambaMu, ada
yang tetap terjaga. MengingatiMu. B<u>ersimpuh mengadu kepadaMu, wahai yang
menerima segala pengaduan. Menangis kepadaMu, wahai yang paling berhak menerima
tumpahnya air mata. Meminta petunjuk kepadaMu, wahai yang memiliki segala
petanda. Meminta penjelasan kepadaMu, wahai yang memiliki rahsia langit, bumi
dan di antara kedua-duanya.</u></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">15.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Lihatlah, anak bongsunya benar-benar
mengajarkan hakikat cinta yang sebenar. Mengajarkan hakikat perasaan yang
seutuhnya. <u>Ketika semuanya tumbuh hanya keranaMu, ketika semuanya terjadi hanya
keranaMu.</u></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">16.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Orang yang sukar melakukan sesuatu itu
mungkin kerana hatinya, Delisa. Hatinya tidak ikhlas. Hatinya jauh daripada
ketulusan.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">17.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;"><u>Pintu-pintu kebaikan itu tertutup bagi
orang yang tidak tulus. Terkunci bagi orang yang tidak ikhlas.</u></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">18.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Delisa sujud dengan sempurna buat
pertama kalinya. Delisa menyambung sujud yang terputus oleh gelombang tsunami
itu. Delisa sujud, sebuah tarian penghambaan yang sempurna. <u>Delisa tidak ingat
siapa pun lagi saat sujud. Fikiran Delisa satu! </u>Delisa mahu khusyuk. Maka Arasy
Allah bergetar. Menyinar cahaya indah itu memenuhi langit. Sekilas cahaya
menakjubkan itu menggetarkan semesta alam.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">19.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Ya Allah, sungguh, kami tidak pernah
memiliki. Kami tidak pernah mempunyai. Engkaulah yang Maha Memiliki. Engkaulah
yang Maha Mempunyai. <u>Ya Allah, bahkan diri kami sendiri bukan milik kami!</u></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">20.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt; line-height: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Maha suci Engkau, Ya Allah! Yang selalu
menepati janji. Cukuplah percaya dengan satu janjiMu. Maka kehidupan di dunia
ini akan terasa jauh lebih indah. Semua terasa jauh lebih indah. Yakinlah!</span></div>
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exam in a week and here i am, distracted. </div>
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tahap distracted dia tu, i can even googled for 'rumah untuk disewa di pulau pinang.' -.-'</div>
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i want to go back to Penang by the end of this year so badly. :(</div>
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walaupun Malaysia panas, ada GST, korup sana sini, jammed teruk, elaun sikit. :P</div>
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walaupun clinical years nanti berganda ganda lebih mencabar, doktor doktor kat hospital Malaysia nanti sangat garang compared to here, </div>
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i really can't wait to be home. </div>
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tahu je nanti-- bila dah busy with clinical years, for sure- i'll miss Dublin and hope to turn back to this time :P </div>
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<strike>hakikat manusia selalu lupa nak bersyukur</strike></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">macam dulu kecik kecik tak sabar nak besar</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">bila dah besar rasa nak jadi kanak kanak semula</span></div>
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i'm glad i'm in the twinning programme, </div>
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i guess the duration of 2.5 years being far from my family is enough for me-</div>
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untuk cedok pengalaman dari negara orang dan untuk tahu yang wherever i'll go, nothing can compares to our own country. </div>
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here's an article on Escapism - <a href="http://lifehacker.com/how-to-snap-back-to-reality-when-escapism-becomes-av-1723091630?utm_medium=sharefromsite&utm_source=Lifehacker_facebook" target="_blank">http://lifehacker.com/how-to-snap-back-to-reality-when-escapism-becomes-avoidance-</a></div>
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hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-66554515417809609392016-04-07T12:47:00.001-07:002016-04-07T13:23:48.727-07:00#CadanganMovie: The Teacher's Diary :)#np Terimaku Seadanya - Misha Omar & Hafiz Suip<br />
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<i><u>KENAPA MANUSIA MENJERIT-JERIT MASA MARAH?</u></i><br />
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<i>Seorang Syeikh berjalan dengan para muridnya. Mereka melihat ada sebuah keluarga yang sedang bertengkar dan saling berteriak. </i><br />
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<i>Syeikh tersebut berpaling kepada muridnya dan bertanya : "Mengapa orang saling berteriak jika mereka sedang marah?".</i><br />
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<i>Salah seorang murid menjawab : "Karena kehilangan sabar sebab itulah mereka berteriak."</i><br />
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<i>"Tetapi , mengapa harus berteriak kepada orang yang berada di sebelahnya?</i><br />
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<i>Akhirnya Syeikh berkata : <b>"Bila dua orang sedang marah, ketahuilah hati mereka saling berjauhan. Untuk dapat menempuh jarak yang jauh itu, mereka mesti berteriak agar perkataannya dapat didengar. Semakin marah, maka akan semakin kuat teriakannya. Karena jarak kedua hati semakin jauh". </b></i><br />
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<i><b>"Mereka tidak saling berteriak antara yang satu dengan yang lain. Mereka berbicara lembut karena hati mereka berdekatan. Jarak antara ke 2 hati sangat dekat."</b></i><br />
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<i><b>"Bila mereka semakin lagi saling mencintai, apa yang terjadi?"</b></i><br />
<i><b>"Mereka tidak lagi bicara. Mereka hanya berbisik dan saling mendekat dalam kasih-sayang. Pada akhirnya, mereka bahkan tidak perlu lagi berbisik. Mereka cukup hanya dengan saling memandang. Itu saja. Sedekat itulah dua insan yang saling mengasihi."</b></i><br />
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<i>Syeikh memandang muridnya dan mengingatkan dengan lembut : "<b>Jika terjadi pertengkaran di antara kalian, jangan biarkan hati kalian berjauhan. Jangan ucapkan perkataan yang membuat hati kian menjauh. Karena jika kita biarkan, satu hari jaraknya tidak akan lagi boleh ditempuh!"</b></i><br />
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bercakap tentang jarak antara 2 hati yang sangat dekat ni kan, ^^</div>
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kalau dulu <span style="font-size: x-small;">'First Love (A Little Thing Called Love)'</span>, is my favourite Thai movie -kini tidak lagiiii<br />
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lagi lagi ada scene floating lantern awhhh *insert heart shaped eyes emoji*<br />
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I realized that IT IS possible to love someone you have never knew before.</div>
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and it is possible for people to fall in love through writings. ;)</div>
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unlike any other sappy love stories, the hero and heroin only meet each other's eyes at the last 2 minutes of the story kot! </div>
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the rest of the movie revolves around fishermen's kids who went to a boat school, passionate teachers who are doing their best for the students, and of course, a diary which brings two strangers together. :)</div>
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Ni trailer: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZC4aq1Jht3Q" target="_blank">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZC4aq1Jht3Q</a></div>
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Ni movie: <a href="http://www.veoh.com/watch/v79122945NBWKyMhf" target="_blank">http://www.veoh.com/watch/v79122945NBWKyMhf</a><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">selingan: Mak dah jumpa Ayah masa umur 22. #motif #kaitan </span></div>
hai :)http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700300367809481171noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7468335004613957043.post-36442391621891313922016-02-24T13:24:00.001-08:002017-07-03T06:40:16.431-07:00What is self-confidence again? :)kalau nak tahu, beli tiket balik Malaysia ialah salah satu perkara yang boleh motivate diri untuk semangat study hihi. (ye ke? hehss)<br />
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sebab kalau boleh kita nak spend cuti lebih lama di tanah tumpah darah, berbakti pada keluarga dan masyarakat gitu waktu summer break,<br />
SO kena jawab exam betul betul supaya tak perlu balik Dublin awal untuk re-sit paper.<br />
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InsyaAllah! *biceps*<br />
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tapi, satu benda yang merunsingkan bila nak balik cuti kat Malaysia ni, adalahhh ...<br />
<strike>berat badan naik </strike> *cries a river* T_T<br />
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tahun lepas kemain lagi, belum sampai KLIA dah ready skema jawapan kalau mak cik mak cik kat kampung tu menyoal, kawan kawan sekolah tanya kenapa makin gumuk? >.<<br />
*cries a river again*<br />
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"Kat sana susah nak berpeluh, pergi gym pun peluh tak keluar."<br />
"Kat sana sejuk, so cepat lapar."<br />
"Mak cik, metabolisma saya rendah." gitu<br />
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tapi, at the end, I don't even say a thing about this.<br />
sengih je. too lazy to explain myself.<br />
angguk je. aah memang berat naik.<br />
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true that.<br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>"You really have to battle to separate your self-image from your weight. Because weight is always the first thing that somebody sees. Somebody will see you after a few years, and their first comment is about the weight you've put on."</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>"Maybe I've become a better person these last few years. Maybe I've been a great friend to someone. Maybe I've read a lot of books and become smarter."</i></span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">maybe after a year, Hanis tetiba berminat berkecimpung </span></span></span><span style="color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">dalam videografi.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">maybe now Hanis dah boleh masak lauk dinner in half an hour. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">(dulu masa mula mula sampai Dublin, paling kurang mesti ambik masa lebih sejam untuk masak.) :P</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">maybe now Hanis dah start tulis </span></span><span style="color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">buku. (tipu je hahaa)</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>"I know that I'm not my weight. And it's hard to come to that conclusion."</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">bila orang start comment on my weight, I'll try my best not to be affected by that.</span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><strike>hei hei mana ada perempuan yang suka orang tanya or even cakap pasal berat badan? </strike></span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;">*nangis kat bucu katil*</span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><strike><br /></strike></span></span>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">rindu zaman dulu dulu kecik kecik, when this thing was not even an issue.</span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">rindu saat saat I don't even understand what inferior and insecure really mean.</span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;">yes I know the needs to eat healthily, exercise regularly but I don't want to do that to impress people. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;">to care for what society says - you are not thin enough so you are not beautiful?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;">ahh too much pressure! </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;">let's shift the paradigm, can ah?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #141823;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">nak fit and healthy bukan nak kurus. </span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;">sebab apa? </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #141823; font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;">sebab tubuh badan ni Allah yang pinjamkan so tanggungjawab kita untuk jaga elok elok.</span></span><br />
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nah <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtGY4G7II6s" target="_blank">lagu </a>untuk anda. </div>
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jangan insecure sangat. </div>
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bawa bawa bersyukur nikmat sihat dan cukup anggota tubuh badan tu, kays?<br />
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; text-align: center;">"</span><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Feel the rain on your skin</span></i></div>
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">No one else can feel it for you</span></i></div>
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Only you can let it in</span></i></div>
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">No one else, no one else</span></i></div>
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Can speak the words on your lips</span></i></div>
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Drench yourself in words unspoken</span></i></div>
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Live your life with arms wide open</span></i></div>
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Today is where your book begins</span></i></div>
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<i style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: "verdana" , "arial"; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">The rest is still unwritten"</span></i></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333;">#np The Reason -Hoobastank</span></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333;"><br /></span></i></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><i><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: inherit;">'I'm not a perfect person </span></span></i></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><i><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: inherit;">There's many things I wish I didn't do</span></span></i></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><i><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: inherit;">But I continue learning'</span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><i><span lang="EN-US"><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333;">***</span></span></i></span></div>
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><i><span lang="EN-US"><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333;"><br /></span></span></i></span>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Kaki melangkah
laju. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Tak aku
hiraukan angin keras yang menampar pipi.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Risau terlepas
bas. Tak mahu terlewat ke kelas. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Alhamdulillah
sempat. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Sedang bas
bergerak perlahan, aku termenung sendirian.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Adakah aku berusaha
sekeras ini juga untuk tak terlepas, tercicir, atau tertinggal dalam gerabak
dakwah dan tarbiyah ini? <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Adakah aku akan
bersungguh sekuat ini juga kerana takut terlewat ke syurga Firdausi? <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Adakah perasaan
resah gelisah kalau kalau tak dapat tempat duduk hadapan di bilik kuliah, sama
besar dengan rasa gusar kalau tak dapat tempat di syurga Allah yang tertinggi?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Aku merenung ke
luar tingkap.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Suka benar aku
lihat gelagat orang yang lalu lalang. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Rasa itu tiba
tiba menyelinap masuk ke rongga dada.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Betapa
beruntungnya aku kerana dipilih oleh Allah untuk mengenali Dia.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Bertuahnya aku
dipilih merasai indahnya hidup berTuhan dan hidup ada tujuan.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><o:p><span style="font-family: inherit;">***</span></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><o:p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Bila bercakap
tentang usrah,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Perkataan yang membuatkan
ramai βantiβ dan βalergiβ ini bukanlah satu perkataan asing bagiku.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Tapi dahulu,
usrah hanyalah satu aktiviti wajib BADAR pada hujung minggu.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Aku hanya tahu,
usrah adalah tempat manusia berkumpul, bercerita tentang baiknya Allah. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Saat itu, aku
belum benar benar faham apa kuasa usrah.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Tapi kini aku
mengerti, bahawa usrah adalah satu proses pembentukan manusia. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Usrah adalah
sistem yang memandu potensi yang ada dalam diri setiap daripada kita, kerana
tidak Tuhan jadikan kita sia-sia.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Usrah adalah
sumber kekuatan bila mana aku dirundung lemah iman.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Usrah menjadi
medium aku bertemu figure figure hebat yang besar jiwanya, <br />
yang tak kisah berkorban, yang sentiasa percaya dengan firman dan janji Tuhan.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">βJika kamu menolong (agama) Allah, niscaya Dia akan
menolongmu dan meneguhkan kedudukanmu." <o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Usrah membuat
aku termotivasi untuk sentiasa bertambah baik dari hari ke hari. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Usrah menghadirkan
kembali semangat dalam diri, </span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">untuk sama sama mengangkat Islam ke maqam
tertinggi, <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">kerana perit
jerih peluh darah perjuangan Rasulullah dan para sahabat dalam menyampaikan
risalah agung ini, </span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">tidak wajar hanya terhenti di sini.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><i style="font-family: inherit; text-align: center;">Oh Turner of Hearts, keep our hearts firm on Your Religion.</i></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;">***</span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>'I've found a reason for me</i></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>To change who I used to be</i></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>A reason to start over new</i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>And the reason is You'</i></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i><br /></i></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i><br /></i></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i><br /></i></span></span></div>
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#notakaki: </div>
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I wrote this as my tugasan usrah for this week. Em, apa salahnya share sini jugak, kan? ^^v</div>
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